If Tomorrow Starts Without Me

reflection point

Long bus rides home always means its reflection time because i can neither fall asleep nor study. Very often, people will tell me " say something leh" or "Eh why always i start the conversation one" or " why are you so quiet today". Looking back years ago, when we were just little kids, I spoke the most among my cousins, phone calls from my primary school teachers came in frequently complaining about me being talkative. Perhaps they have taught me well enough such that i have quietened down, perhaps i have truly learnt that silence is the best defence, by keeping quiet you observe the most, the lesser you say the lesser you give away, the lesser you say the lesser wrong things you say, the lesser you say the lesser people can use your words to attack you back. And i was thinking maybe its because i have lost my confidence just talking to people face to face, and lastly perhaps i have become so boring that i just don't know what to say. Take your pick. But actually i would rather you accept it that i am just who i have become.

Okay I am rather drowsy now because of some stupid person disturbing me last night. CHAN YI HERN. all your fault!!! Disturb me like midnight. HMPH. okays shall have a undisturbed day today. whees. No one is to disturb me today. No one and no one at all.

Sometimes i dunno whether to cry/laugh coming home to an empty house. Its good cause i can do whatever i want, its good because theres no one to nag at me, its good because i can learn what it is like to live overseas and prepare myself cause i really don't want to stay in Singapore forever. Its no good cause its just a empty house with nothing. nothing at all.

Whee. i love the sky.

posted by mel @ 3:26 PM