If Tomorrow Starts Without Me

Melancholy

Feeling very sad now, cause saturday is ending soon. I love saturdays. Cause i won't have to think of PDP the next day, or having to think of the undone work that is due the next day. I love saturdays because i have my flute lesson. I love saturdays cause i can sleep the whole day away.

I am extremely tired. I slept for 10 hrs last night, plus another 2 in the afternoon. Yet i still do not feel rejuvenated. I still feel like sleeping somemore. I feel like a living skeleton roaming about this place. repeating motions everyday. I am sick of it. And now school's gonna get even more tiring when strings start yet again. I go for strings because i am a dsa student. My passion for strings is dead. Because of strings, i gave up my passion to help others. Because of it i gave up most of my life, but is it worth it? I found out, no. I know some mistakes made, we shouldnt regret it and should move on with life. But its hard for me to move with such a life. It just isn't worth it at all. I blame myself for this silly mistake, now and forever.


Take me through this journey,
holding my hand in yours.
Let us flow with the music,
to everlasting love.
O lord you promised me
companion, love and shelter.
Give me the faith to embrace tomorrow
and forget yesterday.
Give me the strength to move on,
climbing further up the treacharous road.
And let me win
my own race.

posted by mel @ 9:36 PM