If Tomorrow Starts Without Me

Despair

I'm very vexed, troubled. Ms tee said don't act happy if you're not. But it seems not to be working, fine i shall start acting happy again. I'm really really really exhausted. Fell asleep in the cab. Ya those who know me well enough would know i don't usually fall asleep easily in moving objects. Seriously, if god wants to kill one more person on this earth he can happily take me. I wouldn't mind. And i don't think anybody would care.

I want to sleep forever, even when i'm not sleepy. And i love to hug ms chews bear. bah. nobody understands at all. Nobody. Everyone has their own troubles, everyone is tired. But enough is enough. Honestly. I don't think i can hold on much longer. Ya ms yong is right, why my buttock so itchy to go for mep orch auditions. Tim and Rach pulled out already. Sighs!! Wow, yihern seems to be the only person who can tell i am moody. Wells at least 1 person can tell then.

Yes, i am going crazy. Going to break down again. if only the people who i call close to be would understand. but you know they don't. But i can't expect them to. I wanna sleep. forever. Don't wake me up please.

posted by mel @ 8:56 PM