If Tomorrow Starts Without Me

Life

Life is full of troubles isnt it?
It happens to anyone and everyone.
I cringe at the word depression now,
it's just too scary
especially when its happening to someone close to me now.
And now our PW grp is starting to face problems.
Just for a teeny weeny little problem
like who is responsible to keep the pw files.
That day i left the classroom earlier than them
and i didnt know that so many things happened.
oK la if nobody wants to keep those
humongous big files i will keep it okay??
Not worth it getting into a conflict
just because of 2 files.
And its also not good for someone
to keep his unhappiness to himself
and not tell the rest of us.
Sighs, human beings.
And i don't get it.
Just because i dont want to join the school alumni
means i don't love the school and don't have feelings for it?
just because of that
means i am not grateful to the school?
So thats how you measure love.
Love that only can be seen on the surface.
Anyone who knows me well enough
would know how i still think of the school
how i still remember every single thing they have done for me
how i miss every single thing about it
And you claim to understand me?
I hate it when you always check my file
when i am ASLEEP.
For goodness sake
there is something called privacy.
Fine you want to see everything
just tell me!
why secretly do such things when i am SLEEPING.
I'm sick of everything.
The mep teacher sent a mail saying
we should be practising 2 hrs a day.
If i do that on monday means i would have to practise till 12
tuesday till 11
wednesday till 6
thursday till 4
friday till 9.
Then my maths teacher says
you all better do your tutorials faithfully
cause he took 40 mins to complete our june ct
and we would take more than 2 hrs.
Then my physics teacher says
that tutorials are very important.
Then we have to do tons of readings for mep
which unfortunately i havent started reading a single thing.
The actual PI for pw
is due next friday.
And yet on my second draft
i still see lots of red.
I aint super woman
this feels worst than O levels.
Sad to say,
this is my life.

posted by mel @ 6:14 PM