what's the meaning of life?
I am exhaustedha just trying not to use the word tired.
I was just wondering
what on earth is going on in my life.
Its such an odd question.
I was also asking myself
am i living a life that i want to live
or am i living a life that people want me to live.
I wish I could take a break from life.
That sounds so impossible.
I wonder why life is not about
what nature brings.
Why isn't it about
appreciating the love that exists in this world.
Yet people are so busy looking at their computer screens
busy watching the television.
Just looking at those people
who were invited to apply for the MEP scholarship.
It really seems quite funny to me,
they SUDDENLY practise so hard
SUDDENLY seem so competitive
just for that scholarship.
How many times have people actually
bothered to look at how blue the sky is
How bright the stars are
how the breeze blows against your face
how green the grass is by the pathway.
Probably never.
So stressed out
PI still needs lots of refinement and due on friday
MEP project haven't commenced when its due on monday
Physics test on friday and barely finished studying half
GP project to be completed by next wed
Maths lecture test next week
Lots of tutorials
GPP to be completed real soon.
String camp next thurs fri and sat.
Recitals on 17th and 18th may
Concert on 26th of may.
Suddenly i am hoping that i wont be chosen to play for mep concert.
anyway haa i think that has a very very high probability
considering the fact of how badly i played that day.
Shit laa
i have to see ms lau for practical tomorrow
and i havent really familiarized myself wth lalo and that horrible 20th cent piece.
It feels so pathetic
i really want to sleep now
and i can't.
I had to study physics my whole journey
to my accompanist's house.
But I suppose music really has a therapeutic effect
just suddenly burst out smiling while playing mozart.
Maybe cause of its speed
never really played at a speed that really spurred me on.
Of course the very detail part
still wasnt that good.
But music can only make u forget your troubles for a while.
hope i can b there 4 u too!
posted by mel @ 5:36 PM
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