If Tomorrow Starts Without Me

I simply do not care

I will get on with life without turning back,
today was a much better day as compared to the past few days.
Other than a slight ache in the heart,
I am turning icy cold.
Went to Renee's house in the morning to do PW
then one of the member say what he tore a muscle cannot come out of the house,
then my leader came after eons.
haha it was so funny cause Renee was telling him abt a blue and orange HDB,
and they were sorta calling each other noob.
But we managed to accomplish quite abit,
the proposal to send to the supermarkets
the letters
edited abit of the gpp.
Then we went to KFC for lunch and continue doing
cause i brought my dad's laptop with me.
So we did the itinery for the project,
then the briefing details and stuff.
And my leader told so many crap jokes,
We did our proj until like 3 plus
then went to cold storage
to find out what food expire fast that the supermarkets will throw away.
It was quite fun.
Even though we were all very busy
and the pdp camps just ended
even though we were all very tired
you could tell we were all putting in all our effort,
working so hard just for the sake of the project. =)

Anyways i really don't want to care anymore la,
I don't want to dwell in the past anymore
and make myself so unhappy.
I don't care about whats really inside you,
or just on the surface.
Because i am not god
i can't X-ray through your mind nor your heart.
And why should i bother
if you are really upset of not
does it even concern me?
no.
Why do i bother getting so uptight about such stuff.
Yea i am becoming icy cold,
actually i had been very
just that i don't know what happened to me.
Just like last years SYF,
i didn't even felt a tinge.
To me it was rather expected
no tears to shed about it.
I hope i won't ever have any more tears to shed
be glad my last tears were shed for you.
But never again.
And anyways this shall be the last time out of the last
and thats it
i won't talk about it anymore
i won't even bother anymore
i will forget every single damn thing
that caused my tears to fall.
I will not look back,
i will not even remember the good ol days.
Its the future that matters.
You should forget them too,
forget me if possible for that matter.

Grr i hate rumours,
especially those about my friends.
Today i already heard 2
and i hope i don't hear somemore.
They seem to tell me things i don't know true/false.
And they seem to be quite bad things.
sighs.
Don't tell me la okay.
I don't wish to know.
Heh....


- .- - -.. --- -. -... . ... --- .-- -.-. ---

posted by mel @ 4:47 PM