If Tomorrow Starts Without Me

tears

I won't succumb to all these,
I hope i won't.
I shouldn't let those tears fall again,
I must be strong.
But I can't take it any longer,
I am not super woman.
I won't depend on anyone,
to heal the wounds in my heart.
When you parents don't understand your problems,
when they don't know what a gpp is,
when they don't know what you are going through,
when they think you are doing something illegal in the middle of the night,
what can i say?
Its not that i don't wish i can lay in bed at 10 pm and wake up at 9am.
Its not that i wish to go to rj so often for some rehearsals
and fake my way through.
Its not that i wish to come online so often
and discuss PW.
Its not that I wish to lug my violin to school
and carry it all around.
Its not that i wish not to eat lunch with my classmates
after school and rush to the ms
and grab my instrument
and rush to tkgs
and end up eating chicken pie and chocolate cream bread
for lunch.
Its not that i wished for all this
but it has been thrown to me.
Its not that i wanted shit results for JCTs
but im just not where i am supposed to be.
Its just not my will.

posted by mel @ 11:32 PM